What is There

The mist collects to droplets on the leaves,
slight inches from my eye.  I stare.
I do not see the force and law that forms
the silver globe.  I do not see what’s there,
for spinning wild is how the atoms mean
the world.  I stare.   Simple, still, and silent
balls, the water drops just make for me
the maelstrom into symbols.  And I stare.
All men by nature want to know for sure
and poetry is knowing what is there.
The poem is the end of artifice, I’m sure.

And then suspicion that this thought itself
will wisp into some final sucking fire,
this thought that thought is simultaneous
and simultaneous is how to think.

When I affirm that God is one in essence,
essence still, and silent and indeed so simple,
and yet hypostases three are he and he and he,
the creeds seem end of artifice for me.

I stare, and think too much.  Yet grass in blades
is choosing how to shape the tuft of blooms,
yet bees are hyperlinking blooms in air,
yet atmospheres are swirling over continents,
yet continents are spinning, wild, the world
into the artificial silver globe among the drops
He stares.  He stares, He finds His thoughts take shapes
as artificial lines yet good, yet very good.

Marriage Writes A Letter To The World

You say you know of love.
You heard there was a man who kept a vow
which cost him songs and woman flesh: you sneered,
and sneer replaced your syntax.  Faithfulness
has passed and so has story, so you cannot not
betray and be betrayed.  You riddle Raphael,
demand of Gabriel his password, and the blessed
Michael you sequester for his shots.  You animate
and warm by devil arts, demanding angel proofs
from pronoun parts contorted in a double helix.

You say you know of love.
You nominate yourselves the chefs of love
with tongues forever virgin of the delicates
of love, unable to obtain old age of love.
So smug, and stupid, and smug about your stupid,
sitting while befouling hind and feet
in excrement so proud to sit and trowel
it round to front, then back, for it is warm.
Adjust, again, the angle of your friction
and engorge, and say you know of love.

I say I know of love
but only pose a naked contradiction
for sublimity can only be reported,
never proved.  It flares within a story
framed by rituals and vows, an agon held
as precious for a lifetime, paths where righteous
souls all trip but rise their seven times per day
to say “I do.”  And this, Oh this
is plot and character, the grail, the rose, the wind
that spins the sun and all the summer stars.

I say I know a love you do not know:
in sickness and in health,
both warm and cold,
in hunger and in wealth,
nubile, and old:
“I do.”

When you lost this you lost it all.
Down, your house is down.  How great the fall.

Do you hear what I hear?

My sixty-first November carols me.
The stuttered snow, the huddled hawk, the moon
(so bored above the pasture-scape) all wait
the coming Child again,  again the church
plays Mary:  is the future good? How can it be
the angel’s hail is not a curse, since I’ve
not known a man?  Again the carols fling
their seeds, the smallest seeds of all the seeds,
along our deep and dreamless streets.

Drinking Songs: Fragments

Overheard in an upper room,  before the police came.

1.  Song for all
Dark is the room and dark is the wine
and the dark is fine when it whimpers in the cup:
“innocent blood betrayed on the vine”.
But the wine-bibber knows how the cup is cruel,
how the blood-dark wine always blurs the lines
from down to up in daylit minds.
Sweet is the wine, sweet on the tongue;
sweet is the drinkin’ when the night is young
but bitter in the belly when the friends have run.

2.  Chugging song
Come now, sing now, happy tunes
and drink, drink, drink — we’re in our youth.
“Fool, fool, deliberate fool:
can you drink the cup?
Or will it drown you?
Down, down, three times down,
take the triple-bath, play the triple-tool.
Fool, fool, deliberate fool…”   (repeat)

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Mashup: Meditation

Sit in water that is over your head,

As if a bird in your hair should be left asleep.

Gaze silently on the Word.

Ask nothing, offer no advice, and when your monkey mind

does monkey, care not; do care about your breath,

your hands, and watch the sun melt on the hill.

And even monkeys need a home eventually

so, listen, East, the Spirit deep imbedded

never ceases gathering the monkey clan

like mother spreads her skirts

to sing a lullaby which quiets

all who don’t wander off.

Even the Firs Glance Up

Geese form lines in a grey February sky.
The sky is the color of a goose feather.
Pools in the fields are the color of a goose feather.
Last year’s corn is stubbled at the edges of pools.

The geese can read the signs.
From a thousand feet up their lines
etch deep into the cornfield pools.
Starlings watch their own pictograms
form, melt, and re-form toward the name of spring.
Each bird is simple as a child, but the flock is literate and savant, and this is a wondrous thing.

As the sun sets, a cold rain drives in.
Cold, but not too cold for the twitching roots.
Even the stiff firs stretch, and glance up.

Advent Retreat, Gethsemani Abbey

At first you force your silence,
then it smothers all your verbs
and burrows to the inner edge of words.

At first you force your silence,
then it ponds the stream of thoughts
like rocking sleeps the child.

At first you force,
then even reaching for a spoon is pianissimo.

So let legato breed legato, then, but note the danger signs:
the thistle’s nod in matin breeze seems like a secret handshake;
you see the clover’s fourth from far across the courtyard;
your own name sounds odd.

You’d best start back toward the surface.